The Weight We Carry: Healing Pain Across Lifetimes

“If you feel like you’ve been carrying pain longer than your mind can explain — you’re probably right.”

It all started with a meditation. One of those deep, soul-level journeys that leaves you blinking back tears and clutching your heart like you just stumbled onto a long-lost part of yourself.

I saw myself in another lifetime: in uniform, utterly exhausted, battered, and broken — but still marching. My body in that vision was in so much pain, and it struck me just how much that lifetime mirrored my experience now. The aches, the fatigue, the weight I’ve carried for so long, even in this life.

That moment was my first breadcrumb — the clue that maybe my body wasn’t just reacting to today’s struggles, but carrying the unhealed imprint of yesterday’s battles. Or, in this case, a lifetime’s worth of them.

Following the Clues

As I sat with this vision, little details started to line up. The uniform. The goosebumps when I saw historical images of soldiers that matched my meditation. The deep, visceral reaction when I read about how they marched back to camp broken, bloodied, but alive.

The lump in my throat. The tears that sprang to my eyes. My soul was speaking loud and clear: this was me.

And my body — bless its stubborn little heart — had apparently decided to just keep marching, carrying that pain into this life.

The Soul’s Perspective

Here’s the thing: the soul doesn’t see life the way we humans do. We think in neat little lifetimes, start to finish, as if each chapter is sealed shut when we die.

But the soul? She sees one big, beautiful, continuous story. And if no one tells her otherwise, she assumes the pain she endured is still part of the job. Still part of survival.

So she keeps carrying it.

And my body, listening loyally to my soul’s old story, kept hurting. Year after year.

The First Step

The good news? Just seeing it — just naming it — loosens the grip. That vision was my wake-up call to finally tell my soul: “You can lay this down now. We’re safe.”

So I began a simple meditation, speaking to that part of myself from another time:

“I honor what you carried. I release your suffering from my body now. I thank you for your endurance. You can rest now. And so can I.”

I don’t expect the pain to disappear overnight — it’s taken lifetimes to build, after all. But the healing has begun. And that’s enough.

An Invitation

I know I’m not alone in this. Maybe you, too, have felt a kind of pain — physical or emotional — that seems too old, too deep, to belong to just this lifetime. Maybe your soul is still marching through battles that ended long ago.

If so, know this: it’s safe now. You can start to lay it down.

This is just the beginning of my journey, and I’ll keep sharing what I discover along the way. Healing happens in layers — and that’s okay.

So, if you’d like to walk this road with me, keep checking back. We’ll keep peeling back the layers together.

Because no one should have to carry their pain forever.

✨ With love and light,

Theri Edwards
Visionary Light Journey